i must go

When I was little, I read the Little House books by Laura Ingalls Wilder more than once.  One thing that sticks out to me was the idea of Pa being continually pulled West by a sense of adventure...an addiction he couldn't satisfy no matter how great his current location.

I feel like Pa.

I love Bellingham; don't get me wrong.  Part of me wishes the end of my time here wasn't so close.

The other part of me feels like this:

"Follow Love" by FFH

I'm gonna miss the simple town full of memories
I'm gonna miss just hanging out with all my friends
The rainy days and summer nights
Skipping stones by the river side
But i know.. its time to go

So heres goodbye heres so long
I must go and follow love
I feel my heart moving on
I must go and follow love
Carry on while I'm gone
This is what i've been dreaming of
I miss you so
But i must go, go and follow love

I've got a heart thats full of dreams
and a little bit of crazy
I can feel it pulling me to somewhere i have never been
I'm packing up and leaving home
To travel into the great unknown
Its time, i have to go

So heres goodbye heres so long
I must go and follow love
I feel my heart moving on
I must go and follow love
Carry on while I'm gone
This is what i've been dreaming of
I miss you so
But i must go, go and follow love

Were not guarranted tomorrow
So we must just keep on living for the day
and make the most of every moment
every step along the way...oh

So heres goodbye heres so long
I must go and follow love
I feel my heart moving on
I must go and follow love
Carry on while I'm gone
This is what i've been dreaming of
I miss you so
But i must go, go and follow love

I must go, go and follow love

Ya know, I think I feel myself checking out of the Pacific Northwest mentally and emotionally.  I'm ready for my next adventure, I do believe.  It will break my heart to leave - and yet, I feel the pull to something new and crazy.

So tonight I applied to a job in Homer, Alaska.